Strange beds and a decision.

Last night was a wild time. Brianna's party turned out to be HUGE but laaaame. Everyone was super drunk, except for Gabbi and I, as we just kept going outside to smoke out of my shitty pop bottle bong as this emo straight edge kid stood there looking like a lost puppy and talking to us. Mostly about how he doesn't do drugs. And he just kept saying it. Repeatedly. Annoying? Yes. It was at about this time when we decided to call Gabbi's friend and cab across town to chill at her house.

The cab driver was insane. Hahaha. We told him our tale of the lame party and how they are just rarely fun anymore. So he then says, in his super strong east indian accent, "You find no parteh, you come to dee parteh cab." And then he starts BLASTING the radio. And Gabz and I are just giggling like mad. Wow. Gotta love the awkward moments. Actually I was kind of creeped out by him.. but then Marina came out and paid for our cab.

Marinas house was way beyond ballin'. She lives with a roommate, named Jen, who seemed pretty cool. Marina is my age, and goes to my current school. The whole thing kind of intrigued me, and I started wondering if I could do that. You know, live on my own and stuff. But as always, it seemed impossible. Anyway, eventually she left with her boyfriend, and Gabbi and I just chilled around the house. After eating way too many handfuls of dry oats, she fell asleep on the couch and I passed out in Marinas bed.

3 am. I'm awoken by an energetic, happy Marina, completely high on ecstacy, shaking me awake because she wants the blanket I'm lying on. Which is really soft by the way. So she takes the blanket, I am standing there, COMPLETELY out of it, and she goes "Okay, give me a hug!". So we hugged. And it was cute. And I still had no idea what was going on so I went back to bed.

In the morning, Gabbi and I called my mom, who came and picked us up. They seemed to get along well. All in all a pretty weird night.

Okay, now back to the Marina-living-on-her-own thing. My brother and his super awesome girlfriend Brooklyn, are desperate for a roommate. I pondered about moving in, just gave it some brief thought, but then I was like "No, I couldn't afford it." Lately I've just been feeling really codependant, almost like a total baby. So after talking to Marina about how she does things.. well, I realized it was actually do-able! I've really had this seemingly natural urge to leave home lately. I'm sick of how I am, never doing anything for myself. So today I talked to Sean and Brooklyn and decided I'm going to move in at the beginning of March. I have a 2 hour class every morning, and then I can work for the rest of the day and come up with the money to pay their super cheap rent!

I can't believe I'm actually doing this.

I'm probably completely insane.
It sounds totally out of the blue but it's like all I've been thinking about lately.
And my second eldest brother did it a few years ago, and he's really supportive and thinks it's a great idea. So does Janelle. She has that same feeling I do. The IWANTOUT feeling. Only she's already in France. Now I understand why she was in such a big hurry to leave.
And Seans is a lot closer to school, so I can walk there every day.
I'm nervous. I know very well that it will be a challenge, but that's exactly what I need/want right now.
This also means I can buy my own groceries!!!

Now I just need to run this by my parents. Prepare for destruction with the father..

Pointless, I know.

I woke up severely early this morning, for a Saturday. About 8:00. Which is weird seeing as I was up till after 2 am chilling on my bed with Steph, Alyssa, their friend Skylar(who was pretty cool, seeing as he admittedly likes Taylor Swift), and of course, Old Toby. It was hilarious, and I didn't get to bed untill about 3. So why was I up at 8 am? I really couldn't tell you.

Being awake and all, I decided to go for a legit workout, and it was very much so, legit. Right now, my limbs are like jelly and I could really go for a massage..

I haven't really been doing anything else today, aside from texting my Ontario residing brother and planning to go to a really sweet party tonight. All in all, life is good.

Skin and Blister.

Today was a mighty fine day. It started off as a pretty lame one. But then I hung out with my sister and she made it better. Actually, she made it amazing. Yay!

My friend got kicked out of his house and his parents are psychos. Yeep.
I don't know if I want to go out this weekend.

After a good sandwich.

Dear goodness. Look who's blogging two days in a row, still heavilly content and with nothing to say! Today was sort of stupid. I slept in. Again. Today I actually missed english because I just did not wake up for some reason, which makes me feel super awkward/bad/retarded, because aside from all the regular reasons why I would feel that way for sleeping through a class, my teacher is also the mom of a good friend of mine. I was actually at his house the other night before we went to Revolutionary Road (which was, by the way, THEE worst movie I have ever seen in theaters, besides some obviously stupid ones, like Norbit or Scary Movie 3, but those I endured when I was like 15, so really..) and she was there. In the living room. So I waited outside. Jeez. Who knew it would be that weird. I'm so used to calling her by her first name too! Wow.

I'm really glad Scrubs season 8 started a few weeks ago. I watched two episodes last Tuesday, and they made my evening. No, they made my WEEK. Zach Braff has to be the most brilliant and respectable comedian/screenwrite/actor who's work I have ever seen. He's just completely awesome, no other way around it. Did you know that he actually wrote, directed, and chose all of the music for Garden State? Aswell as acting in it, obviously. And that music was intense. I personally wouldn't mind finding a guy exactly like him at some point in my life. Ahh!

NINE MORE DAYS UNTILL I FLY TO ONTARIO! I can't wait. It's exactly what I need at this point, just a change of scenery filled with new people. Maybe I'll move back someday. I was born there, afterall, and I love it as a province for some reason. I was just talking to my brother about our plans and I am just way beyond psyched. I plan on going on runs IN THE FOREST every morning! Like really, how does that NOT beat the lame, frozen sidewalks and traffic I'm used to in the winter here. I've always been a huge fan of just local forests being RIGHT there. Like in peoples backyards. Or across the street. I WISH I had that priviledge. Sigh.

I talked to Janelle today. We have been talking a lot more lately and I like it. Yeah. All I can really say about that. I miss her, and everyone else who's left, but I feel I've gotten used to it. Maybe not that, but I can handle it, I mean. At first it was a little overwhelming, but I'm glad I can still function normally without them : )

This afternoon I updated my sisters nearly empty iPod, which is nearly 2 years old might I add, because she is deprived of the musical aspect in life. She just doesn't listen to music. And I don't get it, at all! That's why I made her give me her iPod so I could fill her soul with goodness. I really don't know how we are related. Bah.

In case you were wondering, I DID just eat a VERY good sandwich. I can't even handle how great it is when foods taste perfect AND are good for you :D I used whole grain bread, plain tuna, a few chopped cucumbers, some skim cheese, mustard, and a bit of pepper. I sound like a complete loser, but wow, was it ever ridiculously good.

Eye doctors and grocery fantasies.

My oldest brother told me to start blogging a little while ago, so tonight I finally decided I would. He told me not to make it lame, but right now, I really don't have anything very exciting to talk about. No random thoughts, no world issues or stories to discuss.. I'm just feeling really good in general, which is the worst, blog-wise.

I went to the opthamologist today to get my eyes checked because it's a standard procedure for diabetics to see a specialist every year and a half if they've had the disease for 5 years or more. I hated the painful eyedrops and the hour long wait in the tiniest waiting room I've ever seen in my life, but once things got done, it turned out my eyes have been completely unaffected by my diabetes. The doctor was really nice too, and he had a bulletin board with all these cute pictures of his wife and little curly haired ginger children hanging on it. And they looked so happy, which made me feel warm and fuzzy. But, who knows if they really are as perfect as they look hanging on an office wall.

It's February now! I love February. It has always been a favorite month of mine. And I have always loved Valentines day, since before I was old enough to date. Actually, there has only been one Valentines day in which I haven't been single, and that one was by far the worst! So look at that.

You know what else I love? Grocery shopping! I'd like to go on a grocery shopping date someday with a cute, confident, happy boy. That's something/someone I've never experienced before.. But yes. We would go grocery shopping. In the spring. And it'd be raining, and we would have to run across the parking lot and would get drenched anyway, because even after we finished putting all the groceries the car we'd be driving, I would make a big deal about getting the quarter back from my cart, so I'd have to run back across the pavement to put the cart away.

On a lighter and more realistic note, I also love breakfast sandwiches.